Sonntag, 5. Juni 2011

meeting the family...FOR REAL! :S

saturday was a cool day! cool but somehow exhausting...


Paul took me to his parents' place for some kind of family-get-together. I was so nervous ;___;
normally I just put on my 'whatever-attitude' like I don't care at all what they think...but I was too nervous for that. so I just sat there chewing my nails...


firstly, I'm not used to the fact that people actualy want me to meet their family and spend time with them. so...I don't know .___.
it's just pretty new to me and I did not really care about it at all before. So I thought: why not. I never thought I would be that nervous.



And his family...there are....SO nice! I'm not used to that either. I mean my family is really nice and caring too and I love them and I can handle this (most of the times...).
But this direct and open way to interact. You get in there and everybody gives you a hug .___.
that was....wow...


I like them. they are all really nice and his brothers are so funny and outgoing and everything. Unfortunately Sonja wasn't there. I like her a lot too ^^
everybody talked to me once in a while and asked me some questions and we just talked. I especially like Jan's girlfriend. I think her name was 'Simione' but I'm not sure ^^;;
we talked a lot. She's asian and she speaks a little bit german but mostly we talked to her in english which I really enjoyed. It was a change to use my english again and I actualy feel more comfortable with it. It's easier for me to say things in english. in german they sound just stupid .__.
Basically it's just easier for me to speak my mind in english.


Then we started playing a game together in the yard. Like tipical family-style, all together....
that was...another thing I'm not really used to. I just don't know this way of interacting with family. It's so different from what I know.



still...even though there were really nice and I had a great time it was all a little bit too much.
you guys know me. So many people always give me stress. It's just my nature. I don't know ^^;


I don't like crowds and stuff. Many people make me nervous and feel uncomfortable and I don't know why. that was just so many people I did not know and well...I was really tired and exhausted in the evening x___x


i think i will need some time to feel comfortable with his family.


but still, I feel pretty honoured. Paul said I was the first one ever he took home to his family and who he wanted to be a part of all this. It makes me feel special and somehow proud ^___^
it shows me once again how much I mean to him and it makes me happy.


i really like the way things are right now. It feels just right and everything. I think it will all be alright


XOXO
Johnny